Year-end Summary 2020#
2020 is a year that many people will never forget, especially for me.
Postgraduate Entrance Examination#
Perhaps the biggest decision I made this year was in September when I decided not to take the postgraduate entrance examination and go straight to work. In fact, my family probably noticed it during the summer vacation. I wanted to say it on the way to the train station in September, but I still didn't dare. I couldn't listen to their motivational words every day. It also indirectly reflected that our family rarely had face-to-face communication about the future or review, always relying on text. But can I guarantee that I can absorb it? Today, I looked back at the chat records in the pigsty and saw their helplessness between the lines.
My classmates thought I "gave up" regrettably, but every time I said it was a stop-loss. After thinking about it carefully, one reason was that I was lazy during the summer vacation. I played basketball every night and thought about how to play during the day, which caused me to fall behind in progress. The most important thing is that I was afraid. I felt that I didn't have the skills and my foundation was weak. If I didn't pass the exam, what could I do? Go home? I had already given up on the place where I couldn't even improve my basketball skills. Computer science is indeed difficult, but I don't think there is anything to be afraid of. It's like every time I tell my friends from Ninghai about my future plans, they always discourage me or say that I look down on Ninghai. I don't care about other people's opinions anymore. Anyway, if saying these things can make them happy, then it's a good deed.
Life#
The whole junior year passed quickly, experiencing the longest winter vacation, so I spent a long time at home this year. There were many things I wanted to do, but I didn't accomplish any of them. For example, learning frameworks, learning cooking from my father, practicing basketball, and core training... The best time periods were spent lying in bed and on the basketball court. It seems like every year is a dead loop, and that's why I have never succeeded. It's just like playing games. I'm not good at it. Not to mention basketball, I have been like this for more than ten years without any improvement in my skills.
After returning to school in the second half of the year, the counselor from the old college directly kicked me out of the old dormitory and moved me to the dormitory in the new college upstairs. We had discussed it before and agreed that they would notify me in advance if I needed to move. So what's the difference between him and a bandit? He only knows how to complete the task and then lick his superiors. The best impression the university gave me in the four years is probably that I was able to live in the newly built Prince Building. Other than that, it is truly lacking in humanity, and education seems to have already collapsed.
I was very lucky in the second half of this year. A classmate who owned a car helped me apply for a seat in the laboratory, and for the next three months, my life was in the dormitory, cafeteria, laboratory, and basketball court. I also successfully found an internship in the week of the final exams. It's really fortunate to find someone who likes to communicate about technology and play basketball. I thank this classmate for introducing me to the field of computer science.
Work#
On the day of the interview, I felt very bad. I was very confident on the subway and even prepared a long speech to boast about my personal projects and aspirations. But when I arrived, I was asked a series of basic questions and was stumped. They hardly asked about frameworks and other technical aspects. After I went back, I reflected on it a lot. I can create things, but my understanding is still shallow. The foundation is the cornerstone.
In 2020, I made about 350 commits, and most of them were just superficial. I really wanted to develop a good open-source project in the second half of the year, but unfortunately, I went for an internship later and found that I was not skilled enough. I hope that in 2021, I can develop a good open-source project.
I have spent more time coding every week, and before the internship, I was mainly doing CRUD operations. In the past two months, I have learned a lot from my mentor, but overall, I feel like I can't keep up with his thinking. I always come up with the worst solutions to problems.
I hope I can seize the opportunity in the spring recruitment of 2021.
💻🏸#
Movies and TV Shows#
At the beginning of the year, I finished watching the latest season of "Money Heist". I really didn't like the feeling of being interrupted abruptly.
The best anime of the year was "Attack on Titan".
During the summer vacation, I watched three mind-bending movies: rewatched "Inception" and "Interstellar", and watched "Tenet" once, but I didn't understand it.
In August, I watched "The Eight Hundred", and in October, I watched "The Captain" (it felt like watching Lee Chong Wei in the past few years). On New Year's Eve, I watched "A Little Red Flower".
Games#
I didn't play many games in 2020. My desktop computer has been collecting dust at school... But when I returned to school, I played for a few days and then didn't feel like playing anymore.
- Sekiro: Shadows Die Twice (3rd playthrough)
- Rainbow Six Siege finally reached Platinum once
- Cyberpunk 2077 (2 hours, haha)
- Overcooked 2 (just like arguing in the kitchen)
Music#
Youtube Music is really great. Ever since I watched 1million, I listen to songs while looking at my phone.
Year-end playlist
Photography#
After selling my camera and drone, I lost the desire to take videos and photos. Maybe I'm not cut out for it. I was impulsive at that time, like buying a toy that ended up collecting dust. If I have the opportunity in the future, I hope I can take a photography class. For now, I don't have the spare money and time for these things.
Badminton#
I played the most badminton in 2020, and it was also the most exciting year after the University Games. The best time for practice is already gone, and it will never come back. But I have no regrets. I hope that in the future, I can play with some strategy and learn my father's playing style.
🐏#
Finally, I want to thank the friends I met after coming to the west side of the city. Everyone is very nice, and I even met someone from my hometown. I feel lucky that I have never had to start from scratch in building social relationships from childhood to adulthood. Thank you all for taking care of me.
Thank you to my roommate who played games with me.
Thank you to my friends who played badminton with me.
Thank you to my parents for understanding and respecting my decisions.
2021, I hope to become more disciplined and move towards my goals!